My wife has pictures around our house from the good old days, when I was some 20 pounds lighter than I am now. Without trying to sound like a diet-sales-spam, I’m going to use the cliche “I’ve struggled with my weight for most of my life”. I suppose I’m lucky that I’m not obese, and never have been, but my issue is how easy I put the extra weight back on, after I work hard to loose it, especially these days. Now I want a body by design.
Being 44 it stands to reason that my metabolism burns less calories than it used to, therefore I have to be more pro-active to drop pounds than I used to be.
It feels rather odd to be writing about something so personal, but let’s face-it, all aspects of our lives are effected by a healthy body, and the image in the mirror is one that we wish would match our own ideal perception, of how we should look. If we’re not happy with what we see in the mirror, then how can we expect other people to like us enough to believe in our abilities? It’s so easy to let the body get out of hand and then the self-esteem is dragged down with it, like an endless cycle.
Sure I know that our outward image is not the core of happiness, yes being obsessed with looks is a sure sign of vanity, but what about the lack of energy from poor nutrition? and just the feeling of being overweight? when the clothes don’t fit well and an obvious craving for caffeine and/or sweets interrupts our work? as the body runs tired trying to burn off all the toxins ingested the previous night. Again, and endless cycle, not to mention the simple discomfort of having the added bulk on the frame.
Ok, it’s obvious the time has come again to make changes and enact some self-improvements. Despite the plaguing knowledge that this year alone I’ve embarked upon at least 5 earnest efforts to gain control over my personal eating habits. Having kept a journal with a diary and an ink pen, which by the way seems novel, in this day of high-technology and with all these blogs, but no-one but me reads my journal, whereas I’m not sure who reads this Blog. Anyway, I’m using this Blog to improve-myself and hoping that baring my soul a little will further motivate me to remain more disciplined about my health regime.
What I have learned from looking back in my ink and paper journal, is that it’s relatively easy for me to drop the first 4 kg (weight is measured in kilograms here in Brasil), and once I lost as much as 7, but then I always broke the good patterns and quickly put the weight back on. So this time, I’m aiming for 10 kg loss by January 1, which is about 22 lbs. and makes an average of 3 lbs per week. This is realistic for me, and according to my knowledge of nutrition, shouldn’t cause any health risks or leave me with too much diminished energy and could give me a body by design.